Trying to keep busy honestly I just can’t cope right now. I am pretty much on autopiolot for life at the moment. Ask me what I want for supper or what I should wear today my head would explode. I just cant deal with day to day crap anymore.
I just dont want to deal with no support system right now I had a great one with things to look forward to maybe still do maybe I don’t.
I am moveing forward though which is the oddest part. My own brain is telling me everything is completely fucked and should be breaking down down anyday now.
Today providing I pass a rental credit check I will have a new place to live on the first of febuary. It will be alot better for me then this place.
So hopefuly that turns my week around its been a great start to the year fallowed by upsets and loss of control. I will keep going it would just be nice if i didn’t have to cook and decided what i am going to cook right now.