So recent events have cause me to take stock of my life. I’m really unhappy at the moment. I won’t bore you with the details but I’ve come to conclusion I’m just sick of hearing these three specific thing from women in my life
- “You are a beautiful Human being”. I hear this from people all the time and honestly if I could believe it I would, I just keep fucking hearing it right before the people ghost right the fuck outta my life.
- “You have an amazing outlook on life”. Clearly the people who tell me this don’t know me at all, My life has been utter an complete shit due to mental illness. quite frankly I’m amazed my heart has given out on my completely and it’s not like there is much opportunity in my life for positive shit.
- “You are so talented” Yup so talented I’ve managed to become homeless this summer. Yes I have my talents and such I can write bullshit poems and stories. I can paint the worlds most optimistic picture with my words, when inside I’d rather take a little slice off my face so the ignorant can see some physical symptoms of the shit i deal with internally every day.
So please stop telling me these things, I don’t want to hear them if my work has blown your socks of compliment the work and i use the term loosely as no one pays me for shit. That is the artist’s life tho, suffer, suffer, suffer some more then die and if your one of those lucky artists that meets someone special in your life hopefully they don’t break your heart. I get it seems odd I’m sick of hearing these things but the number of times I’ve heard these things and then been emotionally stepped on in the same breath well i don’t like it. Consider yourself lucky if you get a chance to have a family and hey if your verbally abuse the shit out of your spouse best way to keep them around. Because being amazing and beautiful sure isn’t.